It is not the strong, the confident, or the self-assured who can, with hope and propriety, ask the Lord for strength and peace. It is, rather, the weak, the helpless, and the chastened, those who have truly heard the voice, and have been brought to realize their utter dependence on the one who utters it. - Psalm 29 Commentary by Matthew Stith, Pastor of CPC.
The more I seek to justify myself as a 'rational and good' person, the more I come to realize that I really fall short of it. Indeed, one comes to realize the greatness of this relationship, this grace and this love after then.
4.26.2010
4.08.2010
Real Love
Just now, I was looking for my hairband on the table, in the dark. And i stretched out my right hand to where I thought the hairband was, but it wasn't there at all. And i almost wanted to switch on the light already, when my left hand found out that the hairband was just next to it. :)
Suddenly, it made me realise, my lightbulb moment! I've been looking, unknowingly, for this something in everywhere, but couldn't find it. Little did I know, this something is right near me, so near me, yet I was blind to it.
I gradually realise, that deep down within each person's heart, we yearn to find acceptance, assurance from other people or things. No? I never thought this need would be so great.
But, thank You, because only in You, we are made complete. :)
These few days reflected a lot, and it was a good time of growth. :)
Suddenly, it made me realise, my lightbulb moment! I've been looking, unknowingly, for this something in everywhere, but couldn't find it. Little did I know, this something is right near me, so near me, yet I was blind to it.
I gradually realise, that deep down within each person's heart, we yearn to find acceptance, assurance from other people or things. No? I never thought this need would be so great.
But, thank You, because only in You, we are made complete. :)
These few days reflected a lot, and it was a good time of growth. :)
4.03.2010
Good Friday
Hello blog! Michelle says you are almost non-existant. So i came to blog. Haha
Anyways, besides the point. Thank God for bringing me to hokkien service today :) It's kind of amazing, because few years back, I wouldn't be willing to go for a hokkien service.
Love the warmth there, really. And today I heard about God's love (once again, but it also amazes me that everything, I learn something new about it that really gives me a new vision and deeper understanding of the Cross.)
The pastor asked, have you ever felt like you were wronged before? What was that feeling? And what was the feeling when you couldn't complain/say anything about it? That feeling must have really sucked. And that was exactly what Jesus felt (okay putting it in modern terms). Christ used his blood, his blood, to make a way for us to Heaven. It's really amazing, this love.
And, he also said something. Remember we say that evil people will have evil retribution, good people will get good things? Why do we all have to die one day? That's really the consequence of sin - this implies that we are all sinners - bad people. That's why we all will die one day. But God gave Jesus to die for the world, that we may die, and live again with him after death :) that's the result of love, grace and mercy. All in abundance.
This is really the gift of life, and great great love. This Good Friday was much more a spirit-opener for me as compared to the other years back. :) Though there are still many uncertainities in life, I somehow have a sense of peace in my heart :) peace that I know comes from God :)
Really wanna thank God for everything and anything. Hehe. Oh michelle tan, have I told you before? Last sem's marketing project made me realize that good project mates are really, really a great blessing. And I really am blessed this sem (not that I wasn't last sem) and I learned to not take it for granted and thank God for it. :) hehehe!
God wants to bless us with a life of abundant peace and joy, if you would allow Him to do so. <3
Anyways, besides the point. Thank God for bringing me to hokkien service today :) It's kind of amazing, because few years back, I wouldn't be willing to go for a hokkien service.
Love the warmth there, really. And today I heard about God's love (once again, but it also amazes me that everything, I learn something new about it that really gives me a new vision and deeper understanding of the Cross.)
The pastor asked, have you ever felt like you were wronged before? What was that feeling? And what was the feeling when you couldn't complain/say anything about it? That feeling must have really sucked. And that was exactly what Jesus felt (okay putting it in modern terms). Christ used his blood, his blood, to make a way for us to Heaven. It's really amazing, this love.
And, he also said something. Remember we say that evil people will have evil retribution, good people will get good things? Why do we all have to die one day? That's really the consequence of sin - this implies that we are all sinners - bad people. That's why we all will die one day. But God gave Jesus to die for the world, that we may die, and live again with him after death :) that's the result of love, grace and mercy. All in abundance.
This is really the gift of life, and great great love. This Good Friday was much more a spirit-opener for me as compared to the other years back. :) Though there are still many uncertainities in life, I somehow have a sense of peace in my heart :) peace that I know comes from God :)
Really wanna thank God for everything and anything. Hehe. Oh michelle tan, have I told you before? Last sem's marketing project made me realize that good project mates are really, really a great blessing. And I really am blessed this sem (not that I wasn't last sem) and I learned to not take it for granted and thank God for it. :) hehehe!
God wants to bless us with a life of abundant peace and joy, if you would allow Him to do so. <3
2.19.2010
Acts 20
An accountant: weighing carefully the credits and the expenses; and in the end, not counting his own life dear to him, compared to his God and how he can serve him.
A runner: who had a race to finish, and nothing would keep Paul from finishing the race with joy
A watchmen: there to bring forth the whole counsel of God’s word
Wow.. There's really so much more. So much more, to this life. :)
A runner: who had a race to finish, and nothing would keep Paul from finishing the race with joy
A watchmen: there to bring forth the whole counsel of God’s word
Wow.. There's really so much more. So much more, to this life. :)
Acts 19
There was this debate about whether those "disciples" are really christians already, because they had not received the Holy Spirit and know little about it, but they knew of a Messiah.
4. What happened here?
a. It’s a tough issue, and full of debate, whether these Ephesian disciples were actually Christians or not before they received this remarkable filling of the Holy Spirit.
i. On the one hand, they are called disciples - and appear to part of the company of Christians in Ephesus, things that would not usually be said of them if they were not actually Christians.
ii. On the other hand, they know so little about Jesus; and they are baptized in water again, this time in the name of Jesus.
iii. So were they Christians already or not? It’s tough to say - but certainly, Paul perceived they lacked something of the Holy Spirit in their lives.
b. What about you? Would someone look at your life and see a conspicuous absence of the Holy Spirit - His peace and power - in your life? What do you see when you look at your own life?
i. These Ephesian disciples sensed their need to get right with God, and knew the answer was in God’s Messiah - but they had gone no further than that. They need to go all the way, trust in everything Jesus is and everything He had done, and to be filled with the power of the Holy Spirit. Is this where you are at?
ii. “Have ye then received the Spirit since you believed? Beloved, are you now receiving the Spirit? Are you living under his divine influence? Are you filled with his power? Put the question personally. I am afraid some professors will have to admit that they hardly know whether there be any Holy Ghost; and others will have to confess that though they have enjoyed a little of his saving work, yet they do not know much of his ennobling and sanctifying influence.” (Spurgeon)
iii. God always wants us to go deeper. We have sipped where we might have drunk deeply, we have drunk deeply where we might have waded, and we have waded where we might have gone full out and plunged in!
c. What if you don’t really know? “Perhaps I’m walking in the fullness of the Holy Spirit right now, perhaps I’m not. I don’t really know.” If you are walking in it, you will know!
i. “Give a man an electric shock, and I warrant you he will know it; but if he has the Holy Ghost, he will know it much more.” (Spurgeon) This isn’t something to hope about; we can know - just as much as you know if you have a house, and a family, and that there are four quarters to the dollar, you can know you are filled with the Holy Spirit.
ii. Many Christians know little or nothing - mentally or experientially - of the Holy Spirit. Paul’s question applies to each of them just as much as it applied to those Ephesian disciples.
Wow, this is some deep thoughts. Haha, i don't think my life/mentality is that deep yet :( perhaps now, i'm just still looking and seeking for things that i think really are worth nothing when compared to this full understanding and knowledge of Christ.
I can know i am filled with the Holy Spirit. Am I?
God will stoop down to meet us even in our crude superstitions. This never means that God is pleased with our superstition, but that in His mercy He may overlook them to meet a need.
4. What happened here?
a. It’s a tough issue, and full of debate, whether these Ephesian disciples were actually Christians or not before they received this remarkable filling of the Holy Spirit.
i. On the one hand, they are called disciples - and appear to part of the company of Christians in Ephesus, things that would not usually be said of them if they were not actually Christians.
ii. On the other hand, they know so little about Jesus; and they are baptized in water again, this time in the name of Jesus.
iii. So were they Christians already or not? It’s tough to say - but certainly, Paul perceived they lacked something of the Holy Spirit in their lives.
b. What about you? Would someone look at your life and see a conspicuous absence of the Holy Spirit - His peace and power - in your life? What do you see when you look at your own life?
i. These Ephesian disciples sensed their need to get right with God, and knew the answer was in God’s Messiah - but they had gone no further than that. They need to go all the way, trust in everything Jesus is and everything He had done, and to be filled with the power of the Holy Spirit. Is this where you are at?
ii. “Have ye then received the Spirit since you believed? Beloved, are you now receiving the Spirit? Are you living under his divine influence? Are you filled with his power? Put the question personally. I am afraid some professors will have to admit that they hardly know whether there be any Holy Ghost; and others will have to confess that though they have enjoyed a little of his saving work, yet they do not know much of his ennobling and sanctifying influence.” (Spurgeon)
iii. God always wants us to go deeper. We have sipped where we might have drunk deeply, we have drunk deeply where we might have waded, and we have waded where we might have gone full out and plunged in!
c. What if you don’t really know? “Perhaps I’m walking in the fullness of the Holy Spirit right now, perhaps I’m not. I don’t really know.” If you are walking in it, you will know!
i. “Give a man an electric shock, and I warrant you he will know it; but if he has the Holy Ghost, he will know it much more.” (Spurgeon) This isn’t something to hope about; we can know - just as much as you know if you have a house, and a family, and that there are four quarters to the dollar, you can know you are filled with the Holy Spirit.
ii. Many Christians know little or nothing - mentally or experientially - of the Holy Spirit. Paul’s question applies to each of them just as much as it applied to those Ephesian disciples.
Wow, this is some deep thoughts. Haha, i don't think my life/mentality is that deep yet :( perhaps now, i'm just still looking and seeking for things that i think really are worth nothing when compared to this full understanding and knowledge of Christ.
I can know i am filled with the Holy Spirit. Am I?
God will stoop down to meet us even in our crude superstitions. This never means that God is pleased with our superstition, but that in His mercy He may overlook them to meet a need.
2.16.2010
Acts 18
God has a special timing for everything in our lives. If Paul could have discerned it, the Holy Spirit was really saying, “wait” when he wanted to go to Ephesus, instead of “no.” Sometimes God says, “wait” and He always knows what He’s doing when He says it!
Acts is really an inspiring, exciting and interesting book! Must always consciously remind myself that this is not a fictious story, but a true-blue-earth account, history! God is really amazing in all the works done through Paul's ministry and many others. He must have travelled to many places to preach the word of God, and to continue to strengthen the disciples!
And my computer is down with some virus :/ everytime the virus notic appears it has this omen-feeling tune. zzz :/
Acts is really an inspiring, exciting and interesting book! Must always consciously remind myself that this is not a fictious story, but a true-blue-earth account, history! God is really amazing in all the works done through Paul's ministry and many others. He must have travelled to many places to preach the word of God, and to continue to strengthen the disciples!
And my computer is down with some virus :/ everytime the virus notic appears it has this omen-feeling tune. zzz :/
12.31.2009
Give me Jesus (:
In the morning, when I rise
In the morning, when I rise
In the morning, when I rise
Give me Jesus
Give me Jesus
Oh give me me Jesus
You can have all this world
Give me Jesus
When I am alone
When I am alone
When I am alone
Give me Jesus
When I come to die
When I come to die
When I come to die
Give me Jesus
It's the last day of 2009! So fast, so fast. Reflections, resolutions and all.
Really thankful that somehow I signed up for the meta camp. I went with a heart, not so much for games (heh) but with some quietness and coming back to God. First day of the camp, I honestly didn't feel really connected to the worship. Not that it was bad or what, but probably my heart was away from God. It showed me something that was quite scary - you can be serving and reading bible daily and all, but you can also be away from God in the midst of doing all these. Shared during cg time that I feel that what I took away from all the workshops and sermons was 1)re-focus 2) renew faith.
It's really easy to be so passionate about Jesus during such camps and then when we go back to school/work life, we lose that passion once again. I pray that I may not lose it. A small flame ignited in my heart may be fanned into a large flame! Also one thing about re-focus, the reason that we can solely live for God. There is indeed a higher calling and purpose for life. About holy living, what that was preached about it's God's sacred trust to us - I find that really meaningful and it actually quite touch my heart that God gives us such a trust.
Do I really believe that God is there? Is He really real? The 'being' is indeed really important. That we may live and know that He is real and He is Alive even though we do not physically see Him - living by faith and not by sight.
So my resolutions for 2010 is.. hehe.
1. Do more scripture memory! Okay, no. Start doing scripture memory! And do the five Ts that Ps Kai talked about.
2. I realise I tend to compartmentalize QT time. It's not only during that time that God is nearer to me or what. Learn to know that the Holy Spirit lives within me i.e. talk to Him about small/big matters!
3. Do readings consistently! Really thank God for this sem's results. Next sem's just gonna be more busy. And really, for marketing - and one business module done!
4. Seek God even more deeply. :]
Also, I was sharing during accountability group time, about the faithfulness of God in my life. This year's definitely saw more tears than before/possibly my entire life. I realise it's easy for me to trust God with things that I could somehow control (such as studies - because usually if you put in work, there'll be results). But for those things that are really beyond your control (such as human relations) it was hard to trust God. But looking back at this year, I think one thing God has been consistently telling me was - God will see me through these dark times and I should rejoice in these times and be thankful in these times! You never know, all these are like the training you're going through before the race. Haha, and it was really aptly summarized in meta camp too!
A humbler posture in life, a higher purpose for life.
In the morning, when I rise
In the morning, when I rise
Give me Jesus
Give me Jesus
Oh give me me Jesus
You can have all this world
Give me Jesus
When I am alone
When I am alone
When I am alone
Give me Jesus
When I come to die
When I come to die
When I come to die
Give me Jesus
It's the last day of 2009! So fast, so fast. Reflections, resolutions and all.
Really thankful that somehow I signed up for the meta camp. I went with a heart, not so much for games (heh) but with some quietness and coming back to God. First day of the camp, I honestly didn't feel really connected to the worship. Not that it was bad or what, but probably my heart was away from God. It showed me something that was quite scary - you can be serving and reading bible daily and all, but you can also be away from God in the midst of doing all these. Shared during cg time that I feel that what I took away from all the workshops and sermons was 1)re-focus 2) renew faith.
It's really easy to be so passionate about Jesus during such camps and then when we go back to school/work life, we lose that passion once again. I pray that I may not lose it. A small flame ignited in my heart may be fanned into a large flame! Also one thing about re-focus, the reason that we can solely live for God. There is indeed a higher calling and purpose for life. About holy living, what that was preached about it's God's sacred trust to us - I find that really meaningful and it actually quite touch my heart that God gives us such a trust.
Do I really believe that God is there? Is He really real? The 'being' is indeed really important. That we may live and know that He is real and He is Alive even though we do not physically see Him - living by faith and not by sight.
So my resolutions for 2010 is.. hehe.
1. Do more scripture memory! Okay, no. Start doing scripture memory! And do the five Ts that Ps Kai talked about.
2. I realise I tend to compartmentalize QT time. It's not only during that time that God is nearer to me or what. Learn to know that the Holy Spirit lives within me i.e. talk to Him about small/big matters!
3. Do readings consistently! Really thank God for this sem's results. Next sem's just gonna be more busy. And really, for marketing - and one business module done!
4. Seek God even more deeply. :]
Also, I was sharing during accountability group time, about the faithfulness of God in my life. This year's definitely saw more tears than before/possibly my entire life. I realise it's easy for me to trust God with things that I could somehow control (such as studies - because usually if you put in work, there'll be results). But for those things that are really beyond your control (such as human relations) it was hard to trust God. But looking back at this year, I think one thing God has been consistently telling me was - God will see me through these dark times and I should rejoice in these times and be thankful in these times! You never know, all these are like the training you're going through before the race. Haha, and it was really aptly summarized in meta camp too!
A humbler posture in life, a higher purpose for life.
12.04.2009
10.24.2009
This week
Let's do a quick update of this week!
Monday: good two lessons with my kids! I think lessons are mostly good nowadays. Haha :) bought lunch back home and had dinner with my mummy. So happening right! :)
Tuesday: Didn't have hp101 lecture. Muaha. So had marketing meeting instead and it was.. yup. Then went for my grandfather's birthday dinner! And daddy's car tyre got poked a hole. :/ so we changed tyre at some petrol station nearby. And the man was like realllllyyy helpful. Telling us he thinks we put the thing at the wrong place only after we finished doing it. Don't know, had certain feelings after that.
Wednesday: Supposed to have marketing meeting but? Yup. Anyways hl815 lecture was quite interesting as usual. Haha i think the films they show provoke thoughts. Yup that changing man. Haha, always provoke thoughts about humanity and society. Though I dozed off halfway :p was pretty late for dg also sorry! Had dinner with mummy!! :D at xin wang cafe. HAHA :D
Thursday: went to dental, pain. Then went to school for marketing meeting. Yes meeting. And then stayed in free access lab after that and waited for yu yan to come join me! And samho also. Hehe! Tham jie min spent a hello message to my ntu email. HAHA. 7 years of friendship! My goodness, that's long. And it's funny how we talk such nonsense stuff. Haha! :) went for marketing lecture and was rather late! Muaha. And went for My Sister's Keeper at lot one! Watched those kids dance the dance dance revolution (haha not para para) while waiting for somebody to come. Some danced not bad eh! Saw qian hui (reminds me we haven't met for your present!!!! :/) and ling qiu rong. Feasting away in dian xiao er. Haha! Oh yes, stayed up pretty late to do the marketing presentation. I think everyday was about marketing this week. And the movie made me realise yah, how fortunate I am to be healthy, and have healthy family members!
Friday: Amazing how I got to school on time for lecture. But had a tummy ache!! I quite like hypothesis testing for some reason. More than like the normal stats stuff. Haha must start reading like SOON. yup! And then had hp102 meeting. Talk about one more project, and one more hw101 assignment. Niceee. And then marketing.. don't talk about it haha.
And had dinner with tham jie min at sakae!! :D :D :D :D Tham jie min, I know you'll read this part someday when you are bored. Haha! I'm very thankful for a friend like you! :D I think somehow we don't grow up (though we are, as in you get what i mean right) haha! But it's always nice to talk about silly and stupid things as though we are kids once again. Let's chill more together! Muahahaha. And slacked there till near 9pm! Haha. Oh yes tham jie min wore some nice nice shirt also!! Hehe.
Saturday: Today! Oops. Just woke up not long ago :p too tired from yesterday.
All in all, I want to thank God for this week. Certainly, He saw me through this week. I had a lot of thoughts, and feelings that I myself don't even understand. But thank God He knows me even more than myself. Not that I know what I feel about certain things now. But I really want to pray that I will treat others geniunely. Not say like it's fine it's fine and in my heart it's really not fine. I guess yup many things call for reflections and all. And also thank God for His grace that He speaks to me through His words. I guess I come to conclude, that even though things really do not go the way I hope they would, but guess what. God is God. And there's no chance that my plans are better than His right. The word says, all things work for the good for those who love God. It is real. That His love is better than life. And no matter what happens, I want to learn to be grateful. Because they all happen for a good reason. Yup
Monday: good two lessons with my kids! I think lessons are mostly good nowadays. Haha :) bought lunch back home and had dinner with my mummy. So happening right! :)
Tuesday: Didn't have hp101 lecture. Muaha. So had marketing meeting instead and it was.. yup. Then went for my grandfather's birthday dinner! And daddy's car tyre got poked a hole. :/ so we changed tyre at some petrol station nearby. And the man was like realllllyyy helpful. Telling us he thinks we put the thing at the wrong place only after we finished doing it. Don't know, had certain feelings after that.
Wednesday: Supposed to have marketing meeting but? Yup. Anyways hl815 lecture was quite interesting as usual. Haha i think the films they show provoke thoughts. Yup that changing man. Haha, always provoke thoughts about humanity and society. Though I dozed off halfway :p was pretty late for dg also sorry! Had dinner with mummy!! :D at xin wang cafe. HAHA :D
Thursday: went to dental, pain. Then went to school for marketing meeting. Yes meeting. And then stayed in free access lab after that and waited for yu yan to come join me! And samho also. Hehe! Tham jie min spent a hello message to my ntu email. HAHA. 7 years of friendship! My goodness, that's long. And it's funny how we talk such nonsense stuff. Haha! :) went for marketing lecture and was rather late! Muaha. And went for My Sister's Keeper at lot one! Watched those kids dance the dance dance revolution (haha not para para) while waiting for somebody to come. Some danced not bad eh! Saw qian hui (reminds me we haven't met for your present!!!! :/) and ling qiu rong. Feasting away in dian xiao er. Haha! Oh yes, stayed up pretty late to do the marketing presentation. I think everyday was about marketing this week. And the movie made me realise yah, how fortunate I am to be healthy, and have healthy family members!
Friday: Amazing how I got to school on time for lecture. But had a tummy ache!! I quite like hypothesis testing for some reason. More than like the normal stats stuff. Haha must start reading like SOON. yup! And then had hp102 meeting. Talk about one more project, and one more hw101 assignment. Niceee. And then marketing.. don't talk about it haha.
And had dinner with tham jie min at sakae!! :D :D :D :D Tham jie min, I know you'll read this part someday when you are bored. Haha! I'm very thankful for a friend like you! :D I think somehow we don't grow up (though we are, as in you get what i mean right) haha! But it's always nice to talk about silly and stupid things as though we are kids once again. Let's chill more together! Muahahaha. And slacked there till near 9pm! Haha. Oh yes tham jie min wore some nice nice shirt also!! Hehe.
Saturday: Today! Oops. Just woke up not long ago :p too tired from yesterday.
All in all, I want to thank God for this week. Certainly, He saw me through this week. I had a lot of thoughts, and feelings that I myself don't even understand. But thank God He knows me even more than myself. Not that I know what I feel about certain things now. But I really want to pray that I will treat others geniunely. Not say like it's fine it's fine and in my heart it's really not fine. I guess yup many things call for reflections and all. And also thank God for His grace that He speaks to me through His words. I guess I come to conclude, that even though things really do not go the way I hope they would, but guess what. God is God. And there's no chance that my plans are better than His right. The word says, all things work for the good for those who love God. It is real. That His love is better than life. And no matter what happens, I want to learn to be grateful. Because they all happen for a good reason. Yup
10.15.2009
Thursday
Hello! Guess where I am now :p I'm at............(drum rooolllllll).........HSS Free Access Lab! Muaha, Lab No.1. Okay, please stop stalking me. Haha!
Anyways, yesterday was such a fun, and meaningful day. Had surprisingly enough energy to even respond to my alarm clock yesterday, of which I really thank God because I know this energy came from Him. :) was quite excited for yesterday because of blitz and cg. Haha. Wednesday is my cg day. Anyways, blitz was a good experience, opened my eyes to many things and to see the state of perhaps the campus, or singapore or youths, probably not the world (too gerenalized already) okay. Had a sort of mixed feeling after that, but thank God for the journaling time at night, where i slowly unpacked the events of the day. Better write things down before I forget. (Must associate more things with my long term memory when they're in short term memory! hehehehe.) While writing down, I realised that indeed, it is all in God's plan, perhaps it could be just sowing. Then i recalled somewhere in the bible, it says you reap what you sow, and those who sow with tears will reap with joy (or somewhat like that) and you never know. I came with my own expectations, and perhaps it didn't 'meet' my expecations. But ultimately all that happened was in God's Top Secret Big Plan. teehee! So, i rejoice and am glad for that opportunity to do this. :) Oh yes, and talked quite a little to Charmanie (did I get it right? Sorry, I'm so bad at remembering names. My frontal lobe (haha) is probably remembering other stuff. But my temporal love works just as fine when it comes to face recognition! :D)
And it was Tham's first day at work again at Finance. Hehe! Very happy! :D and today someone so cool, going all the way to serangoon with her colleagues just for crabs! Better kop one crab back for me.
HL815 lecture was thought-invoking. HAHA. Nice time talking about it a little more with Rachel Soh. Thanks for the cookie! :p very nice! Michelle didn't want it so I got the whole cookie to myself yay! HAHA. Went off with Michelle who kindly walked up to North, cos my lecture was there and hers was at HSS. Thanks tan! :D I had a very fun time (though it was pretty short) talking to you too!! And not to say we got seats on the bus!! Hehe.
Trained down to tiong bahru, and overshot hehee. Met ruth for dinner at mos burger! We finished in quite a short time. Haha. And went for cg! Cg reminded me, that prayer indeed is more than talking. Really thank God also, for the celebration for joseph.
Anyways, yesterday was such a fun, and meaningful day. Had surprisingly enough energy to even respond to my alarm clock yesterday, of which I really thank God because I know this energy came from Him. :) was quite excited for yesterday because of blitz and cg. Haha. Wednesday is my cg day. Anyways, blitz was a good experience, opened my eyes to many things and to see the state of perhaps the campus, or singapore or youths, probably not the world (too gerenalized already) okay. Had a sort of mixed feeling after that, but thank God for the journaling time at night, where i slowly unpacked the events of the day. Better write things down before I forget. (Must associate more things with my long term memory when they're in short term memory! hehehehe.) While writing down, I realised that indeed, it is all in God's plan, perhaps it could be just sowing. Then i recalled somewhere in the bible, it says you reap what you sow, and those who sow with tears will reap with joy (or somewhat like that) and you never know. I came with my own expectations, and perhaps it didn't 'meet' my expecations. But ultimately all that happened was in God's Top Secret Big Plan. teehee! So, i rejoice and am glad for that opportunity to do this. :) Oh yes, and talked quite a little to Charmanie (did I get it right? Sorry, I'm so bad at remembering names. My frontal lobe (haha) is probably remembering other stuff. But my temporal love works just as fine when it comes to face recognition! :D)
And it was Tham's first day at work again at Finance. Hehe! Very happy! :D and today someone so cool, going all the way to serangoon with her colleagues just for crabs! Better kop one crab back for me.
HL815 lecture was thought-invoking. HAHA. Nice time talking about it a little more with Rachel Soh. Thanks for the cookie! :p very nice! Michelle didn't want it so I got the whole cookie to myself yay! HAHA. Went off with Michelle who kindly walked up to North, cos my lecture was there and hers was at HSS. Thanks tan! :D I had a very fun time (though it was pretty short) talking to you too!! And not to say we got seats on the bus!! Hehe.
Trained down to tiong bahru, and overshot hehee. Met ruth for dinner at mos burger! We finished in quite a short time. Haha. And went for cg! Cg reminded me, that prayer indeed is more than talking. Really thank God also, for the celebration for joseph.
I also thank God for bringing various 'new' people in addition to the cg. I enjoy the jokes that the others make. Haha! Though I don't really make much jokes. But they're actually really funny. Hahahaha. And I realised I like cg more now. Not just the people, but also it's a very special time, when you can come and talk with fellow friends who are brothers and sisters about God in this warm cosy home at Janie's place.
The days of the oppressed are wretched, but the cheerful heart has a continual feast. :)
10.13.2009
Tuesday
hello! :) i'm at the hss free access lab now! So today was a cool day, staying at home and sleeping till 9.30am! very long never sleep till after 9am already :/ that explains why i feel tired these few days. hehe. And it was pouring pouring pourrrrinnnnnggggggggggg... Then in my sub-conscious state of mind (haha) i keep hearing mummy talking to me. Haha! I think she wore the new shirt we bought for 25 bucks out today, then she was very happy because it makes her look good. :p
so anyways... pourrrring...haha! Okay the picture isn't my house! Just kopped from the net.
Strangely, when i woke up at 9.30am i felt as if i slept for a very long time. No dreams, haha no rapid eye movement (rem stage MUAHA.) listened to some worship songs on youtube, it's really nice. And then went off to meet rachel to go to school together! Yippee, i wasn't late! Heheeee :D and then did hw101 group work, and saw michelle tan, donica and her friend at free access lab too. Haha there was a guy eating his lunch beside me, can eat in free access lab meh? Anyways, lunched after that. And planned secretive things! Hehe. Tomorrow's gonna be an exciting day. And dozed off a little during psych lecture just now. :/
womberle womberle. HAHA :D okay waiting for time to pass and then can leave school and meet mummy! Yay papa going to fetch us home later! :D
Today's verse..coincidentally. 1 Peter 2:1,2 cg vision/motto/mission (haha whichever it is). Rid myself of all malice, deceit, envy and slander of every kind. Went to check up those meanings at onelook.com (hehe) and.. deceit means everything else except the truth, slander means saying things that may be false that wrongly accuses someone else. Envy means feeling resentful at other's successes. I guess at some point of time, i do commit all this :/ need to rid myself of it! A one time event. :)
I'm gonna learn one page of music one day (hopefully) hehe. Now i'm doing flight of the bumblebee. Tham says there's people who acapella it. HAHA. it's crazy maNz. :p
so anyways... pourrrring...haha! Okay the picture isn't my house! Just kopped from the net.
Strangely, when i woke up at 9.30am i felt as if i slept for a very long time. No dreams, haha no rapid eye movement (rem stage MUAHA.) listened to some worship songs on youtube, it's really nice. And then went off to meet rachel to go to school together! Yippee, i wasn't late! Heheeee :D and then did hw101 group work, and saw michelle tan, donica and her friend at free access lab too. Haha there was a guy eating his lunch beside me, can eat in free access lab meh? Anyways, lunched after that. And planned secretive things! Hehe. Tomorrow's gonna be an exciting day. And dozed off a little during psych lecture just now. :/
womberle womberle. HAHA :D okay waiting for time to pass and then can leave school and meet mummy! Yay papa going to fetch us home later! :D
Today's verse..coincidentally. 1 Peter 2:1,2 cg vision/motto/mission (haha whichever it is). Rid myself of all malice, deceit, envy and slander of every kind. Went to check up those meanings at onelook.com (hehe) and.. deceit means everything else except the truth, slander means saying things that may be false that wrongly accuses someone else. Envy means feeling resentful at other's successes. I guess at some point of time, i do commit all this :/ need to rid myself of it! A one time event. :)
I'm gonna learn one page of music one day (hopefully) hehe. Now i'm doing flight of the bumblebee. Tham says there's people who acapella it. HAHA. it's crazy maNz. :p
Mondays off
Hello! :D today i had a very fun day with tham jie min. MUAHAHAHAHA. our cup noodles lunch! Hehe and the boiling water, and then the xiao zhong's FOG. haha it was really funny eh. Nice being at tham's house's dining table to study! Haha, talk about those times when we studied math for As man. Haha! And geog also!! Then we went to ajisen to eat! And jalan jalan a while after that. How excite right! :)
Anyways today was a good day with my two piano lessons also :) really want to give thanks, because through all the things that happened, i think God allowed me to find the joy of teaching/piano back. Instead of doing things just through the motion and finding it not something worth looking forward to (i.e. burden) haha. Yup. really glad :) though the journey wasn't easy.
I can't upload my photos onto the computer. And since i'm such a technology noob, i shall try it later another day when i'm free :p hehe. Yay! Going for a concert on friday. Like finally! Don't know if it'll turn out good a not, given the tchai's no.1 the other time (haha!)
Anyways today was a good day with my two piano lessons also :) really want to give thanks, because through all the things that happened, i think God allowed me to find the joy of teaching/piano back. Instead of doing things just through the motion and finding it not something worth looking forward to (i.e. burden) haha. Yup. really glad :) though the journey wasn't easy.
I can't upload my photos onto the computer. And since i'm such a technology noob, i shall try it later another day when i'm free :p hehe. Yay! Going for a concert on friday. Like finally! Don't know if it'll turn out good a not, given the tchai's no.1 the other time (haha!)
10.09.2009
samantha ho rocks :D
hello! i am in hw101 lecture hahaha! samantha ho is such a nice girl! she helped me change my blogskin :) :) it's so nice now! yay :D i have no time to blog so samantha ho is helping me blog now!
i have a marketing presentation today! i am going to present 15 slides in 5 minutes :D i rehearsed myself at home HAHA! i am so sleepy now ): can't wait for lunch :D
okay hopefully i will have time to blog again soon! bye!
i have a marketing presentation today! i am going to present 15 slides in 5 minutes :D i rehearsed myself at home HAHA! i am so sleepy now ): can't wait for lunch :D
okay hopefully i will have time to blog again soon! bye!
9.04.2009
Hi there! :) I'm at business library now! haha. okay, feeling so opened because everyone can see what i'm typing. haha! gee. People really do change. Things won't stay the same way as the good oldddd times. And yup, i think it's quite true, keep those past as your memory and 'nutrition' (MUAHA) and move on with life! Okay taa!
7.05.2009
It's so funny how vast the internet can be... and how it makes people more connected, and not. And it's rather interesting to note that, the same thing can be very pleasant to one, and very unpleasant to someone else. Haha, how time fliess. On 1 july, i was really rather hmmm amazed and a little scared to see just how fast time pass. 1 july! :/ okay, but still have to move on. Haha! And to see how people's lives are getting on (my sub-conscious favourite hobby) okay. that's it. bye!
5.14.2009
5.09.2009
5.01.2009
Hmm, i was browsing through the profiles of my 'friends' in facebook. HAHA! okay i think i sub consciously have a liking for such a hobby. Anyways, as i was kaypohing with some random secondary school friends' profiles, i realised that we've all almost grown up a lot since last time. Haha, it's funny how time fliessssssssssssssssss by so quickly. And everyone has a life of their own now! Hmm, don't know if i'm saying this right, but i guess life really keeps changing all the time. Probably five years down the road, you'll meet a whole new bunch of people and i don't know. Haha, who can tell what will happen in the future right.
Sometimes, we always see a certain thing from our own point of view and never ever once considered that there could possibly be another view. Hmmm, sometimes we get so worked up over small issues. Most of the time, it is not because of that issue, but because we are restless within our soul, probably something is bugging in our hearts. I don't know why i suddenly write all these down. Haha! but it's fun to kaypoh other people's profiles and blogs :p hehehehehe!
No matter what, i know i will never ever touch a certain kind of lifestyle, this i am very sure. Talking about dreams/ideal career/whatever, i really still don't know. We'll see when it comes! :D
Sometimes, we always see a certain thing from our own point of view and never ever once considered that there could possibly be another view. Hmmm, sometimes we get so worked up over small issues. Most of the time, it is not because of that issue, but because we are restless within our soul, probably something is bugging in our hearts. I don't know why i suddenly write all these down. Haha! but it's fun to kaypoh other people's profiles and blogs :p hehehehehe!
No matter what, i know i will never ever touch a certain kind of lifestyle, this i am very sure. Talking about dreams/ideal career/whatever, i really still don't know. We'll see when it comes! :D
4.30.2009
4.10.2009
Hi there again blog! I've gotta rest early for psychometric test tomorrow to be in the best mental state of mind! haha :D anyways today's lunch was hmm, rather worthy to blog about. HAHA so i am going to blog about it now! it's the first time i ever see such things happen. fatty sean was so into the pumpkin soup, the waitress wanted to clear it already then he blurted out erm this one still want one. well, for someone like fatty sean it's reasonable! but then it was like so funny, they saw how much he loved the soup they gave him an extra bowl. hur! and it was quite funny also cos everything came all at once, we couldn't see the table for quite some time until everything was cleared. haha! okay that's about it. hehe!
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